Well, I’m back on the keto train – choo choo! When I first started doing keto in December 2019, it was hard but I felt good. I was loosing weight, people noticed, and I had more energy. Then the pandemic hit and keto stopped. But then around Halloween 2020, I decided I needed to do it again. I wasn’t seeing any results if I was left to my own devices. Since Halloween, I have lost 15 pounds which is GREAT. BUTTTTTTT, I really miss carbs. My goal is to loose another 35 pounds on keto and then I can re-evaluate. The hubs is not doing keto so there are chips, bread, pizza, frozen dinners in the house and it’s hard seeing him eat all the things I want everyday. But if I get myself to a good weight, I’m hoping to be able to enjoy a few more carbs.
I want to feel good about myself again and right now, I don’t. Part of it is that I sprained my ankle January 1st – yes, the first! The whole ‘New Year, New Me’ did not happen this year. I was in bed for almost a week because I couldn’t walk. The good thing about that was I wasn’t near the fridge to look for snacks!
Since I’m a bit immobile at the moment, keto is going to be the best option for me. I know I can loose weight without working out. I just want to add in working out so I loose weight faster and smarter.
I know my self worth is not tied to the amount I weigh but some days, it’s really hard to remember. When I step on the scale and don’t see a number I like, or when I put on an outfit that used to fit right, or when I’m feeling confident and then a picture is taken and I feel that I don’t look as good as I should. It’s a constant battle. Today is definitely one of those days. It feels like I’m always going to weigh this much and that I should just accept it. I know that is not the answer. There is a small voice in the back of my head that says to keep fighting, to keep going. I need to make that voice louder and I’m not sure how.
Stronger than the Last Mile 